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The Album

by Apparus

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1.
Shelby 03:49
Shelby, why have you been crying? Did things fall apart again? Shelby, tell me, are you lying? I know it now, but didn't then Shelby I asked you a question And you've yet to meet my eyes Was it really your intention, To say that you know better? 'Cause I don't think that applies Words cannot repay all the debts you've made You just couldn't care, and now I'm aware With a strict interpretation of goodbye, I'm done with you, and done with asking why Shelby, I know you're not perfect But that never bothered me Till I figured out your purpose And of that, I guess we'll see I cannot explain the reasons that I gave With every choice I made I always pushed away The only thing that could have made me see the truth But it was there I only needed proof
2.
Making bad decisions as a cure for boredom In isolation, disturbing and unwanted thoughts How does deprecation become a pattern? A pale reflection in the water, rippling inwards, gasping for air We don’t have long till the canary dies It’s bound to happen once for sure And if it coincides with the changing tides High tail it out of town He who laughs alone laughs more with others And barring circumstance, I can’t help but laugh at myself Down in a hole where nothing really matters I guess I’ll stay here The season’s over, the season’s over now
3.
you said made it on your own and that no one cared to help prepare you survey the shade you found alone when sunlight finds you hope reminds you for what purpose? I'm certain we crossed that line long ago for what purpose? I've heard it a million times I'm letting go here again it falls to me you need perfection with no connection and then it's when you fail to see we're not improving I'm still moving put back the pieces as they were relive them as a blur for what purpose? I'm certain we crossed that line long ago for what purpose? I've heard it a million times I'm letting go for one purpose and one purpose alone I tried to let it go.
4.
Attraction 03:32
I’m withering, wasted, waiting complacent, even though you’re shivering; dusk is fading But I need to know Is this what attracts you? Dead flowers returned from a friend? With colors to guide you Never to meet head on again My burden is conscious contact finding myself intact You’re certain of what you want, that’s fine… But I need to know Is this what attracts you? All bitter and burned to the end? With colors that blind you Never to be led on again
5.
fortune and sorrow shifting fault lines down below stagnant tomorrow, pray for a raging undertow a criminal mindset forged in a lifetime of regret begging to borrow, following footprints in the snow setting a course out, obsidian skies capsize us now stuck in a stormcloud, raining excuses on the ground overcome by the sun the pallbearer’s daydream has begun a hundred days in a complex maze down for nothing and no one overcome by the sun the pallbearer’s daydream has begun a hundred days in a complex maze down for nothing and no one the pallbearer's daydream down for nothing and no one
6.
Silent Crash 04:05
suddenly sincere how unconventional shuddering with fear it’s unintentional unintentional suddenly it’s clear this castle build of glass (it wasn’t built to last, no it wasn't built to last) covering my ears to feel the silent crash beg forgiveness from the one who told me everything caught inside the Tantalus helpless for a drink suddenly I know I'm indefensible but I never let it show incomprehensible beg forgiveness from the one who told me everything caught inside this Tantalus helpless for a drink moving on, where will you be? will you get along without someone you never need? we've been trapped for so long, there's nothing left between us moving on... where will I be? where will I be?
7.
Nevereven 03:53
I am caught in the glare of the headlight lane Like a child who stays up late, to stare at the moon I am caught unaware in the diamond rain But you know I’d never try if I couldn’t fall through Follow through I need no script to cut these strings A bad trip through to lose my wings I’m a victim of questions, a fallen saint And I lied to get inside the thought that ensued Was is nature’s selection a choice or a game That decided when it’s time for this to conclude And I'm falling through I need no script to cut these strings A bad trip through to lose my wings You tell me lies I need not hear And then despise me for my fears I cannot be what never came Such entities of tethered blame It’s not over never even was Your coldest shoulder bothers not with trust Enough’s enough, tell me you agree Turn away or learn what’s inside of me
8.
Die a Legend 03:22
Green light Shining down on me This room is much more crowded than it seems Pink Floyd Staring off the wall So scared to fly I think that I might fall It’s true Gonna die a legend is a lifestyle And it’s one that we pursue I know That we’re wasting our potential But it’s worth it When they play a song we wrote Clear glass Filled with liquid flame I let her know I’m terrible with names Black ice Painted on the lawn I’ll have one more but I’m already gone It’s true Gonna die a legend is a lifestyle And it’s one that we pursue I know That we’re wasting our potential But it’s worth it When they play a song we wrote White lies rattle in my head But knowing you it’s only truth I said Blue eyes staring back to show Exactly what I didn't want to know
9.
There’s a ghost In the smoke I’ve seen Or was it just a dream? And when its wind Passes through my lungs I’m forced to hold my tongue I’ll do anything to be alone Like a lion from the storm I'll do everything to be ignored I'm the locust from the swarm Am I done, Asking for more time? Don’t want to cross the line And when the sun Steals another night Another sign that I’ll never get this right But I’ll do anything to be alone Like a lion from the storm And I’ll do everything to be ignored I'm the locust from the swarm Well I’ll do anything to be alone Like a lion from the storm And I’d do anything to be ignored I'm the locust from the swarm

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released January 1, 2015

Neal Day - All vocals
John Ludas - Drums, bass, guitar, xylophone
Ben Petty - Guitar, bass, drums, piano

Additional performers:
Teresa Reynolds - backup vocals on track 3
Craig Alexander - Rhodes organ on track 9
Kiley Cubiccotti - Wurlitzer & percussion on track 6

Recorded, mixed & mastered By Kiley @ BrewStu LLC

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